Below are the most recent 17 friends' journal entries.

Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009
livekatie	11:20a	TMI at work I'm the only female in my department, I'm younger by at least 15 years. These old guys know more about me than most!! Today my co-worker is not feeling good (he has Parkinson's and a slipped disk) and stayed home. I'm all alone for a couple hours and today is a really good day for it because I have gas! I used to take gas-x before certain activities, now I edit what I eat if I'm going to get a massage or have derby practice, anything with close contact... I think the thai gave it to me (last night's dinner). I noticed that when I took gas-x before, it would stop the gas for a few hours... but it still came and was so much more potent. It's kinda funny if you know it's coming. Current Mood: working (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 21st, 2009
faetal	9:49p	ugh. now there's rockband and guitar hero in the house. say goodbye to productivity. Current Music: Space Oddity - David Bowie (3 Comments |Comment on this)
faetal	10:52a	Its Solstice. It means a lot to me. Not even in my pagan ways, but... It means the sun will start returning.... It may be spiritual, but on another level it means a lot for my wellbeing. I'm sorta thinking about doing something witchy. I dont know what. Mom's coming over and we'll build a little fire. We'll construct a gingerbread house. I think I'll bake bread as well... maybe have Joel pick up pizza toppings when he goes out shopping... we can have make your own pizza dinner or something. Doesnt sound witchy or spiritual, I suppose. I dont have a yule log to burn, just some storebought firewood and stuff I found in my shed.. no lovely logs to carve symbols into to welcome the sun god. Either way, I suppose the intention is there for me, and the children dont need to be indoctrinated into my crazy ways right away. We dont have to have Sun Pizzas and yule logs.. we can just have a fire and a nice day with Ya-ya. Here's to rebirth. Wether its your own awakening, or something else.. wether you celebrate it on a specific day or time, or not at all... whatever you call it or don't. Happy Solstice. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 20th, 2009
jennievil	6:13p	so here's a recap of the past few days. yesterday morning i discovered Chris's evening flight to Toronto was cancelled.i went online, booked him another flight (spent more money on a different airline, and bought flight insurance so if it got cancelled i could get my money back) at 6:45am for an 11am flight.  At 7:59pm  I checked the flight status to find out that that one as well was cancelled.  While I was at work, Chris called the airlines (United, the original flight, not US the secondary flight) and rescheduled his ticket for this morning at 8am he'd be arriving.  Last night I got home and discovered that flight had been cancelled.  He called United again, they booked him a flight for tonight to arrive at 10pm.  Chris just called me now.  Guess what? The flight was cancelled. He's now been rebooked on another flight to arrive around midnight tonight. AND US Airways won't answer the phone, they say thanks for calling but we're too busy goodbye, and Priceline tells me that because the flight was rescheduled (this is the secondary flight, which is almost $300 I spent) I can't get my money back... even though I bought the travel insurance.   The whole point of this trip for Chris to be here was so we could spend some quality time together and he could drive back to NJ with me.  It looks as if he's not coming to Canada and I'll have to drive back to NJ by myself.  On Christmas eve.  Seriously?  If this next flight gets canceled, that means he's not coming to Canada, and I will have lost a combined total of almost $400 on plane tickets that did nothing but fuck with us. And this also means I now won't have money to pay for my car this month. I need to learn to be patient, and not jump out and do things like buy secondary plane tickets during a supposed snow storm.  Oh and get this... the snow didn't even start to fall until 3 hours AFTER the original flight that was cancelled.  Yeah.  Good job United. I know everything happens for a reason and God has a plan and I have to be patient but honestly.. this is not very nice.  Grrrr.... (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 19th, 2009
jennievil	6:56a	so booked another flight. let's hope this one doesn't get cancelled as well...especially now it's not even going to snow anymore (or so they say...) (Comment on this)
jennievil	5:47a	due to this impending storm of the century, all flights have been cancelled.  chris won't be coming to toronto. i am so heartbroken. i tried calling united but it's an hour wait time and i have a prepaid phone and it costs me $1 a minute that I am on it while in Canada and priceline's customer service department that deals with this stuff doesn't open for another 30 minutes. chances are, there will be no flights he can get on.  so now not only do i not get to show chris around my city, the place where i want to live my life, i don't get to enjoy a few days of quality time with him just relaxing having no worries...like a little vacation...and now i have to drive back to NJ on Christmas eve by myself. i haven't cried like this in a while. sooo frustrating. if only i had booked him an earlier flight, like this morning, instead of arriving tonight but i didn't want to make him wait around while i was at work. it's ok.  everything happens for a reason, i just have to accept that. :( Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Friday, December 18th, 2009
faetal	10:41p	I've become one of those freezing cold people that cant ever seem to warm up. I dont get it. I'm a big girl with lots of insulation, so whats the deal? Jimminy, I've heard rumors that reiki makes you have warm hands, I'm considering trying to learn it JUST FOR THE WARMTH. I'm sure its lies, and I'd really like to learn anyway, but seriously. SO COLD. I turn flax/rice bags cold much sooner than they should. I'm seriously considering keeping a microwave in my bedroom to reheat bags. A simpler and cheaper solution would be an electric blanket. Maybe I should take hot herbs? I hear that can help people who are doing raw diets. I worry though, my acid reflux is triggered by most hot herbs, and its already at critical badness level. frux. (13 Comments |Comment on this)
faetal	4:32p	Not poetic I wanted to write a big beautiful post about parenting. But given that both kids are sleeping on me and i'm typing into my iPod with one thumb I guess I'll have to keep it short. should really learn to make iPod lj posts in haiku form. Forced down time. Posted via LiveJournal.app. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 17th, 2009
faetal	3:56p	I went from feeling depressed for no good reason, to having a bit to be depressed about. I wanted to cry for a few hours but kept it together so I could complete errands. Now I am home and interested in trying to tip the mental balancing act in my head to a positive place. That means problem solving and checking negative things off my list as I improve them. Current Music: Perfect Blue Buildings - Counting Crows (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
faetal	8:07p	I was going to sit down and draw out some holiday gift tag things. I thought I'd just give everyone interested the link and they could print out some gift tags if they wanted. Instead I ended up drawing this: nothing good comes of my intentions :P good thing there's plenty of free gift tags for printing all over the internet. So google away my pretties! Current Music: Perfect Blue Buildings - Counting Crows (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
faetal	10:00p	why, why when I'm already having a hard time dealing with life does Laurel need to start having accidents again. REally? we've been accident free for two months or so.. and now a big spree of them. The last spree of accidents I just bribed her to stop. Any day without an accident meant she got a prize, she stopped the accidents FAST. This time that sounds expensive, and she completely should have control of this.. if bribery works than it seems like its not a physical issue. So what do I do? more bribing? Do I take her to a doctor so I can make sure she doesnt have a UTI? I mean, jimminy. I'm so tired. Too tired for extra laundry, and puddle clean up. Too tired to have her be completely cheerful about it, absolutely no remorse. . Tonight I made her pick up the peed clothes, drop them in the dirty laundry, take it into the laundry room, and help me start a load of laundry. I hoped that showing her the whole process would make her understand that clean clothes dont just come from no where, and she cant change her clothes 4 times a day without it having an impact. But she's done laundry before, and she likes it, still does. I'm not good at this. I'm not good at this life stuff. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 13th, 2009
parkman47	8:43p	best part of 2009: not having to hear from you, not even once
Saturday, December 12th, 2009
faetal	11:29a	The Laurel update I asked Laurel to spell her name the other day. She said, "L-A-U-E-L" Okay, she forgot the R but.. still, I'm pretty impressed. She suddenly knows a ton of letter sounds suddenly and we've spent a few minutes working on sounding words out. We've been reading about phonics and "whole word" reading training... but I'm still not seeing the evil in phonics.. it seems really useful to be able to sound a word out. Especially since Laurel has a pretty extensive vocabulary, so if she was able to say a word she'd likely be able to understand what it was. (at least in the majority of the books she'd be reading at this age) Not that she's reading or anything, but she's been working hard at writing letters and learning their sounds. She enjoys using Starfall.com. She excitedly tells me, "I'm learning to READ!!". She has a bookmark folder with her name on it, and if she can find an open browser on either of the computers in the house she will just hop on and go to her bookmark folder and start playing games. (we have Disney preschool and PBS kids and several other age appropriate game sites bookmarked for her on our computers) She's currently learning to play Animal Crossing, but its a very hard game for a non reader. She suddenly hates "baby games" because they don't have an objective... and that really bothers her. She loves making "arts". She has nightmares still. Sometimes she tells me about them. She said the other day that she "was just trying to KILL those MONSTERS!" (uh oh?) and "two YUCKY people were sitting on our couch!" These seem like excessively scary dreams for a 3 year old to be having. Sometimes *I* forget she's only 3. Thats weird of me. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 11th, 2009
jennievil	11:45p	The last two days have been amazing. Work has been hectic and busy but I have gotten to see some of my nearest and dearest. Last night I met Omar in Mississauga for dinner with him and his grandmother. She's so cute! And Omar is quite possibly the best friend a person could ask for. I am sad he's leaving for Germany for the holidays, but at least I got to see him before I leave, and hopefully he'll come to Nj to visit :) I had a blast. We watched Charlie Brown's Christmas what I had never seen before, and had garlicy pasta and a wonderful evening :) Tonight I met Tenille and we went to the ShadowCats performance for Repo and had a wonderful time. I am so happy to have the best friends and I am going to miss Toronto so much...but I'll be back. I have 3 interviews that I wll be setting up when I return home at 3 different salons, hopefully I can find a position ASAP. Otherwise I am going to have to file for bankrupcy.... which I don't want to do...but... oi. So much stress. For now, bedtime as I have work all day tomorrow followed by the work holiday dinner! I am excited I love my ladies. Goodnight :) 1 week until I see Chris! Yay! (Comment on this)
faetal	1:51p	Laurel was fairly fantastic at her first theater movie. We saw Princess and the Frog. I have a lot of strange mixed feelings about the whole thing, but overall I liked it. Laurel found it rather scary. (but did not complain DURING the movie, only after on the way to the bathroom) Not so scary though, because she immediately asked if we could go watch it again. I told her no, we needed to come home and watch Alice.. cause Joel cant watch her all day when he's supposed to be working. hah. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 9th, 2009
faetal	11:27a	how great is it that Alice looks at books, sees pictures of cats and says, "meoooowww dat ticky!" (meow thats a kitty) My to do: list has weird things on it. Like: Make blog post. feed sourdough starter fill bird feeder I also have to clean and go grocery shopping, so.. its not too weird. okay, i'm boring, just looking for something interesting to say. Failing. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 8th, 2009
faetal	7:44p	I want to change my email address, but its finally to the point where it'd be a huge deal to update everyone's and every sites info with a new one. It makes me unhappy because I just sorta want to ditch the silly email addresses and have a grown up one with my name. I'm not trying to be crazy and silly and anonymous on the internet anymore. (2 Comments |Comment on this)