Buddy Jefferson

THANKSGIVING GET TOGETHER

2003-11-27T17:44:10Z

TONIGHT, at MY PLACE IN THE COUVE

call my cell, 360-241-4800, if i dont answer, LEAVE A MESSAGE

this will be going on around 7-8 tonight until the wee hours of the morning, its BYOA if you so desire... need a ride? call me, and ill come get you...

places to crash here, too...

buddyjefferson @ 2003-11-20T03:05:00

2003-11-20T11:02:20Z

Spoken with fists

2003-11-18T02:24:31Z

Dear Matt, this is your horoscope for Tuesday, November 18th:

Gemini,
Today the Moon in your sign, forming a square with the Sun, will infuse a lunatic attitude in you, making you unfriendly. In love, the trine between the Moon and Venus, promises unexpected adventures. Tip: truth will out.

See you tomorrow.

shouldnt the moon in my sign be a good thing?

i fucking hate myself

buddyjefferson @ 2003-11-17T18:12:00

2003-11-18T02:08:51Z

www.goodbyedisco.com

i own it

thats my emo band, i guess

if it ever happens

goodbye disco

and yea, on another note, im in the door for 30 seconds, the cat looks at me, and i start to cry, i walk to the white board to see if there are any messages, none, i dont check the phone anymore, for fear they may be from her....

i come upstairs, i get a message as i come in my room, and burst into tears, saying i need my shoes off at the door from now on... because they were wet and squeeked....

i just want things back to normal, theyll never be normal, its all fucked up, im fucked up and im fucking fed up

ok

2003-11-16T22:44:32Z

so my christmas song is ready to be recorded, i think, i just need to finish up a few small things

and then, uhh

question, who is willing to help distribute it?

im going to have a page up on hookedoncellophane where people can DL it, and get info and blah blah blah

but im going to send 10 sends to anyone that will hand them out, i figure, or ask that people burn them themselves and hand them out, and ill cove r their costs....

so why bother posting?

2003-11-16T17:40:55Z

all im going to say is that im trying to fight off my baggage, im alone, and im bitter towards womankind...

i want to thank lucy, though, for everything.

buddyjefferson @ 2003-11-11T09:58:00

2003-11-11T17:55:02Z

i see grey when you see blue
i see blood when you see red
everything seems so different
thinking outside of my head

a whole new world
brought in front of my eyes
unfamiliar territory
overcast skies

apparently im not meant to have sex with any of you

2003-10-19T01:06:30Z





	
	
	
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so ill write you a letter, tell you i miss you, and maybe youll give me a call

2003-09-28T21:08:23Z

she called me today, because of the email i wrote... she loves chris, or something, i guess, but wants me, still, and blah, cant seal with what ive done since we broke up (which i dont blame her, id hate me too), she wants to think for a few days

its funny that even when i wanted shannon back, i knew everyone was right, depp down inside, this time, i know my heart is right...

Spineshank - Smothered

2003-09-28T18:43:05Z

The black and cold reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed
And if your darkness blinds me
I could never be more lost

But I'm not the one who seeks your protection
I'm not the one to share the disguise
And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
I'm not the one to tear the same way twice

You push from the inside - smothered
You push from the inside out - smothered

Have all your walls surround me
They're closing in they block my sight
The violence around me
Found me when I could not fight

But I'm not the one to take your direction
I'm not the one who wears the disguise
And I'm not the one to share your reflection
I'm not the one you break the same way twice

I will never win
I will never win with you

I read you
I fear you round up no more than you know
I hate you
I still do everytime you let me go

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-28T11:05:00

2003-09-28T18:04:35Z

thursday makes 47 days....

ironic that its a thursday....

odd enough that its been so long

even worse, i pushed her away, and now, its the other way around....

its finally coming to an end

2003-09-26T06:00:02Z

in 1998, i created parkman47@yahoo.com

and now, its time to say goodbye...

monday at 12am, i will delete it

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-25T22:57:00

2003-09-26T05:56:23Z

My calendar still says August / Because you werent here to change the month / These last few weeks have dragged on for years / And now I see the same days / Ink smeared with my tears

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-25T19:01:00

2003-09-26T02:00:06Z

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-25T16:40:00

2003-09-25T23:38:56Z

Artist: Black Lab
Song: Black Eye

Jane can't keep herself home tonight
Keep herself believing she'll be alright
Keep herself awake to a body that's close to the hands
And the feet that nobody else knows
All the way from London
She looks away laughing at herself and her black eye shade
Boy can't keep his pain under the glass
Laughing at the world as it just slides past
I know this black eye waste these days waste this light
I know this black eye waste these days waste this sunlight
Maybe permission ain't good enough
Maybe you need someone who can stand your love
Maybe somebody who's cool to the touch
So much I know
This black eye waste these days waste this spotlight
Let me crucify you
Let me sacrifice our love
Let me resurrect you
Be my resurrection now
Let me celebrate you
Let me hold your head up high
Let me hang you from the sky

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-25T16:03:00

2003-09-25T23:02:15Z

the world doesn't fix itself
so why did i act like it would?

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-24T15:00:00

2003-09-24T21:59:26Z

once the apple of your eye
now I rot between your thighs
disease and decay
at the epicenter of where you lay
feeling worn out inside
and worn inside out
the falling of your pride
fucking me is your turnabout
a mental fetus conceived by false truths
trying to strangle itself with an umbilical noose
you nurse the lies
and poison the fruit
your misguided life
your poisoned views

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-23T01:27:00

2003-09-23T08:26:49Z

My calendar still says August
Because you weren't here to change the month
These last few weeks have dragged on for years
and now I see different dates, ink smeared with my tears

bad poetry

2003-09-23T08:19:42Z

Therapy Through a Suicide Note

Closed my eyes
To shut out the pain
Blinding pain?
The lies of the weak
The words they use
When they can't handle their pain
My words are good-bye
Because I cannot
Handle the Pain

the calendar still says august

2003-09-21T23:24:51Z

because you werent here to change the month

gig tonight

2003-09-05T01:12:04Z

three sets on saturday (three different acts)

i swear i do too much...

i miss you

buddyjefferson @ 2003-09-03T21:32:00

2003-09-04T04:28:38Z

ATARIS LYRICS

"I Won't Spend Another Night Alone"

A star up in the sky goes slowly passing by,
The lights below...they spell out your name.
You're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time.
And lot's of feeling that I can't explain.

I won't spend another night alone.

Out of every girl I meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But I promise you that you do.

If I had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.

The things you make me wanna do
I'd rob a quik-e-mart for you
I'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free
Just as long as you'd be with me.

she doesnt understand

2003-09-04T03:59:25Z

how much i miss her... she never will, unless she has to do to someone what i had to do to her...

it made me understand what happened to me in the past, though... it made me see a different light

sigh, im sorry

house sitting at my mom's tonight

2003-09-01T02:44:49Z

i havent slept in that house since last september, almost a year ago....

funny how you live 20 minutes from family and you still never see them when you dont have time for anything

funny that you have all the time in the world for a girl, and then all of a sudden you dont

funny how life has become what it is...

i miss you brittny

ive never once said i hated my job and didnt want to come back

2003-08-30T07:24:38Z

until today

7 months into it...

i know itll pass, i hope it passes

things went well with brandy, we're cool as friends

and i saw swat with brianne, and that went well, i think we'll stay friends, im glad she rearended me though

i still miss brittny

when do i meet brenda and brunhilda?